February 2012
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i’m really starting to wonder what appeal tumblr ever held for me. bored.
In madness, the logic and reason that seem so pure and infallible are nothing but an illusion. (A mirage amidst a barren desert of incorrect assumptions and hastily drawn conclusions)
Oops.
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i am a terrible human being.
“You have to die a few times before you can really live.”
– Charles Bukowski
sneezes and snot have been forcing their way out of my various face-holes all day. i managed to drop nearly everything that found its way in to my hands at work (including the tip jar, which is now held together by half a roll of scotch tape.) despite feeling like utter shit, i made it as far as the locker room — determined to get some form of exercise in today — before realizing that...
thrown through a loop again.
can i just take a personal day?
January 2012
37 posts
in other news:
i tried going to sleep three hours ago. it’s funny how quickly time passes when you’re counting down how long you have left until it’s time to go to work. my alarm is set for five hours from now.
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seaairraah asked: Hope you had a great birthday!
“She may be going to Hell, of course, but at least she isn’t standing still.”
– E. E. Cummings
note to self:
next time you’re having a not-so-spectacular day (like today!) and feel like being in a melancholy mood for hours on end (not today!) you should make some lists
bad triggers - what makes you feel like shit? what will put you into a terrible mood if you think about it? what will send you into an endless shame spiral?
good triggers - what will help you take your mind off of the...
“Live to the point of tears.”
– Albert Camus
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“Who is the happier man, he who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who...”
– Hunter S. Thompson
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“The shortness of life, so often lamented, may perhaps be the very best thing...”
– From The world as will and representation by Arthur Schopenhauer
monday morning:
it’s already time to start looking for reasons not to find a cliff to jump off of this week.
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lesson one: how to (honestly) enjoy being (going places, doing things) alone. inspired by a number of things and something i’ve never so much as bothered to try learning — what’s the point? — i know it now. it’ll take a while.
oh and i thought that you should know: chicago isn’t the first thing that comes to mind when i listen to wilco anymore, you are. thanks.
“Often it is the most deserving people who cannot help loving those who destroy...”
– Hermann Hesse
you said that you’re happy and I hope you mean it.
not because i’m so unhappy and not because i say things out of spite, but because i worry about you. i should probably accept that if you don’t think that you’re happy with me, you’re probably right. even if it makes sleeping come with such difficulty and ties knots in the pit of my stomach and yanks at every part of...
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On one of those rare sunshine filled Chicago afternoons, we woke up in our clothes on top of the covers with thoughts still heavy from gin. You examined the palms of my hands and explained the lines and their meanings as I retreated to study the map on the wall – where now, where next? Never recalling the exact words but the idea – distinctly the mention of potential and not living up to it,...